I spent my days, either studying the bible or doing some type of domestic work; where once I would have felt lazy and unaccomplished, I felt calm and at peace. I had been reading several things in the bible that caused me to reflect on my failed relationships and the cause of their demise.
From my limited understanding, it sounded as though my idea of what life was, wasn't so. For I was born into this world with nothing, so why the need to accumulate things, if I will leave the world with nothing. I stopped trying to build my family once I got married, I had tried to pursue my own selfish endeavors and met with failure. Not only did I lose any chance of living "my dream", as I thought it was, I lost my husband and my stubbornness and pride didn't have me fighting for my marriage.
I tried a second relationship and that one failed, well for a number of reasons, first neither of us had a love of God or ourselves. We were quick to run to evil and plotted evil against our neighbors. That relationship was one with the devil, for I was in the pit of hell before I realized it was too late and tried to escape but did not meet with success.
My mother had raised me with a belief in Jesus Christ and God the Father, in my youth I turned away from my father much like the wayward son, who only after losing every thing he had inherited, returned home to his father, disgraced. However, the father received him in love and a great feast was prepared for him.
My life and the bible had similarities that could not be denied, all one has to do is change the names, the dates don't matter because all of the same things are happening. If this were true from me, it would be true for others, so how to spread the message of his love.
Enter the Pastor and Teacher
My pastor was to help me understand the meat of what was being said, she was also my support and strength along with the church, which proved to be like family. Than I had a mentor, he was the authority in my life, from which I was to receive instructions and obey. He was truly God's messenger and if I would heed his words and follow him in faith, the Lord would have be delivered from captivity.
