Elijah - Jasmine

In the bible it says that Elijah will precede the Lord on that great and terrible day.
         It was only right that his parents name him Elijah because before I found out about him I was heading down a dark path of destruction. JJ and I were one in the same, despair had taken hold of me, I was filled with anger and bitterness; life was meaningless without basketball.
       I hated God for taking away everything I loved, my mom was a stranger, I was alone and had no one. Or at least that is what I thought, until I heard your heart beat.

I never knew a love like this, so strong and steady your heart beat
For months you lay in wait so still, the beating you had taken not revealing one bruise
this perfect child inside of me, my body had found a use
I was a vessel, a creator of life
But who was I to create a life I could not sustain
Then I heard the voice of the Lord, "Your not his mother, Angel is your name"
When I saw your mother, you began to run to her
And for the first time in 5 1/2 months I felt you
As you began to run to your parents
I began to run to mine
I had seen my place, in my Father's great design
I couldn't tell my mother but I needed to see her face
To be in the comfort of her arms and to be embraced
When we met your mother, tears filled her eyes
"We decided to name you Angel, so Elijah will know who brought him to our lives"

        My writings were my only creation until I had you, how ironic you would share my mothers birthday, a whole month before you were actually due. You preceded the Lord in my life and my ability to see all his many blessings. Whenever I have faltered, I think of you, how out of darkness I received a blessing, YOU.