Everything I have ever done, I have done in the pursuit of love, or at least what I thought was love. See this story started at Mountain View High school, unfortunately it didn't end there, which lead to me committing adultery not once but twice and both times with "the one".
Not high school sweet hearts, never went that far,
I was a baller, you a track star
we were always butting heads, didn't see eye to eye,
my style and my attitude, had you wondering why
I hide my body and I hid my face
behind a boy persona, telling lies and being fake
Went off to college in different states
didn't know why, you'd be calling me
said you had a girlfriend you wanted to come and see
asked if you and your friends, could come and stay with me
Tried to keep it calm, tried to be cool
but you keep trying to play me for a fool
thought we could be friends
now I'm thinking twice
Am I wrong for liking you
or are you Mr. Wright
Lost track of time, I was on your mind
You were locked up then, I thought I finally had my chance
I wrote you, you called me
thought it was true love, found out you were playing me
you broke my trust, it tore me up baby
Had to distance myself, the silence drove you crazy
Wanted to hurt him so I called you
I was unfaithful, didn't tell the truth
You let your conscious get the better of you
lie, was all I thought to do
Siting in that park, thinking man am I crazy
why am I fighting for this fool I should be Chris's lady
Am I wrong for thinking that we could be something for real
Am I wrong for trying to tell you just how I feel
The words were inspired by a secret love affair, started when I was married, which didn't end and resulted in me cheating in other relationships I engaged in. I had told myself, that I would never commit to one men, unless it was "the one." I had never been more foolish before or after this time period spanning 2008-2015.
My recent come to Jesus and excepting of his love, renew me in such a way I vowed never to commit adultery again. I was going to wait till that fateful day and I would see the face of my Lord, on that day I would "know" him and he would "know" me. When you are in love with the father you don't have urges of the flesh but yearning for the soul.
I would remain faithful until that day, when I would look into his eyes and see my savior Christ Jesus, even if it meant that he who I believed was "the one", wasn't. I would submit and humble myself before the will of my Lord and Savior.
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